I was recently listening to a teaching on the 5 Stages of a Leader.
In this teaching, I learned about the stages and boundaries that we experience in life and the definition of a leader. I began to ponder on what stage I'm currently in.
In January, I will have been leading worship now for 9 years, I will have been a schoolteacher one whole year, I will have been a leader within my college ministry for five years, and I will have been a coach for 6 years.
That's a bunch of platforms. Too many, some in my life think.
I'm very honored and thankful for those in my life that have given me these platforms and allowed me to grow in them. But, I believe I'm coming to the place where I want to narrow down and put myself in the exact place where I am being used to the utmost ability with all my abilities where I can experience utmost joy and satisfaction.
The first stage in life that you experience is considered divine beginnings. The part of life that you have no control over. Who you are born by and who raises you up.
The second stage is considered general ministry. A time of doing. This stage I do believe I have been experiencing for the past ten years. The moment I became a worship leader at sixteen. Working in ministry and in general. Baskin Robbins, Skating Rink, Daycare, Babysitting, whatever honestly, I look back and I see a trail of busyness. Work. Studying, leading worship, working in ministries, missions trips. Always working and doing. I don't look back unpleased I just see years of doing which I would rather see than nothing.
However, I have found myself for the past few days with a question in my mind becoming bigger and bigger.
Why?
What is it that I have been working towards or for? Honestly, I have just felt as though there has been a task at hand to be done and I have been "getting it done". Accomplishing whatever has been put my way big or small. Because that's what I have been taught to do.
But, why? What is it taking me to? Another task? I don't know.
Stage three is considered focused ministry. Where a person narrows their focus and is better defined. A central theme.
Well, I don't know what my central theme is so I can't be on stage three.
So I think I may be in a boundary.
In the teaching, there are four boundaries. Surprise boundary, growth boundary, creeping boundary and expansion boundary.
A growth boundary refers to the need to grow or expand.
A creeping boundary refers to a relatively long process of preparation.
I come back to I don't know.
In a sense, I am always being told by other leaders in my life that I am in preparation for something but, I can't see it nor do I know what it is. I also have to remind myself I am just 25, there's a lot of life to be lived. But, I also don't want to be doing what I am doing now going through the motions and it not take me anywhere. I may want to expand but, I'm wanting to release myself to less not more.
This is what I see: Teaching, Coaching, Leading, Administrating, Planning, Ministry and Music. Out of it all, music is what I have been doing the longest but, I don't see that platform expanding.
How on Earth, can those things wrap up to one or two things?
Unwrapping 2016, I think this coming year may be a year of No. Not in a bad way but, understanding that I can't do it all and when I am asked to do tasks or to take on responsibilities, leadership roles and jobs, I just need to say no.
So I'm here writing this blog for comments, advice, and guidance. Maybe you've been here in this feeling of why and what for. What came next for you?
The one thing I know I am supposed to be doing at this moment is teaching. So am I just doing all of the other jobs for service or purpose? Why and what are these other roles for?
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