For All I Know (Response to Last Post)

I stated in the last two blogs that I have been meditating on the reasons why I do what I do currently in my stage of life. I also said I feel like I may be in a boundary right now coming out of the "Doing Stage" of life. I've come to that fork in the road of Why? What is the point. Who told you to do what you do.

For all I know....

At 20 years old I was standing in an arena with thousands of youth and young adults when God spoke to me and called me to ministry. Now, people will tell you they've always known you were called and so on but, I, myself heard from God at 20 that for the rest of my life I was to do something in ministry. The problem for me now, is finding what that looks like.

Now, in my opinion, when you become born again you are immediately in "full time ministry", but there is that next level of serving day in day out for the ministry and for the Kingdom. I've been leading worship nine years and I have loved every part of it. The struggles, the holy moments, there has never been a night that has been the same and I love that. It shows me even more how precious the Holy Spirit is and how He is genuine and unique.

I have been serving in leadership of a young adult group now almost five years. At times, this has been a real pain, a real headache and super stressful; especially when your spouse serves in the same ministry. But, I find my heart and soul truly loving this role because you see the work pay off when the group grows numerically, relationally and spiritually.

I'm at this point of realizing I'm stretched. (I find myself here many times.) I teach (two 4th grade classes), I coach, I lead, and I sing. It's been this way for years and I don't know what hit me this month but, I found myself one service saying, Why?

I don't know what aspect of ministry I'm supposed to be in I've just served in whatever capacity that was handed to me. This coming year I've been hearing God tell me that's not how I should be any longer. When an opportunity or a role or a job is handed to me, I am to inspect it. Think on it. This year, I sense that I am going to say No to many roles. That's not a bad thing in some cases but, that's going to be super difficult for me. I don't like to disappoint. But, God has been showing me I can only take care of my territory and my influence and saying yes to too many roles is disrespecting the influence that He's given me. It's practically saying, what you've given me isn't enough.

Territory:
My School (CRES)
My Family (My Husband)
My Church (Life Church Worship)
My Community (The Bridge)

For some this may be an easy thing to deal with, you may be asking yourself why is it taking her such a long time to just find what she can be responsible of? Well, like I said earlier, for the past years if you asked me to, I would do anything for however long you needed me. That's going to change in 2016.

This past week God has shown me what to release and what to increase in 2016. I'll mention some of those things in my next post.